Monday, 05 November 2007

• So this is life

  I don't like the life that I live right now. Why is it that things always come all at once? In the past few weeks, at least one thing happened unexpectedly each week, and almost every single one of those involved my parents. Dental appointments, medical appointments, radiology, naturalization, leaky toilet..., and yet to come, another round of dental and medical appointments, Social Security Administration, blah, blah, blah. Sometimes I feel like my parents, whether intentional or not, just make life tougher for me.
  
  My parents complain a lot, and usually their complaints concern things that I don't think are that big of a deal, but they constantly remind me of those things during every moment that I spend with them until there is some sort of a resolution. It's both frustrating and depressing. Sometimes I feel bad for not spending more time with my parents, yet I don't want to be around them either if they are so negative all the time. I would appreciate it if they can just complain less and argue less.
  
  I never like going to doctor's appointments--for myself or others, but most of the time I have to go and translate for my parents. I tend to get pretty stressful over those because I am afraid that the doctor might bring bad news. The one thing that I most dreaded to hear is, "We'll need to run some more tests to see if there really are problems." Why? Because I need to selectively translate to my parents, providing them with enough information to understand why they need to undergo more tests but not too much that would make them worry. Secrets are heavy burdens.
  
  I really want to find someone/thing to blame, but all I can do now is complain in my little blog entry and torture my readers. Sorry...I will try to be a more cheerful person tomorrow.
  
  

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